RETURNING HOME: My 52-year living and healing from trauma, anxiety and bipolar is my life’s story of living with trauma started in 1973 when my older sister died in an accident.

At seven months old, I internalized my sister’s death as if it was my fault, so in addition to grief I also experienced guilt and shame that I didn’t know how to express or process.

That marked the beginning of my history with trauma and disconnection from myself that felt like losing my inner-sense of home and safety.

My mother who already had a diagnosis of bipolar and anxiety disorders, and a history of unprocessed grief, went deeper into grief and depression while my father checked out, also known as dissociation.

Throughout my life I also developed patterns to help me cope with life. For example, over-functioning, over-achiever, over-thinker, over-perfectionist, over-guarded, over-sensitive, over-hypervigilant, and more.

After I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder at age 32, I embarked on a 19-year journey of healing and seeking answers.

One day in February 2024, after attending a six-hour workshop with Trauma Healing Specialist and Teacher Dr. Nima Rahmany, a former chiropractor, is that I made the decision to invest in studying and doing my healing work with him.

It’s thanks to my life-changing work with him, his coaches Kim Gilmore Beard and Islena Faircrest, that I am able to share my story here now. 

I had been keeping a journal for the past 15-years with the intention to turn that into a book memoir, but the pain was too much to be able to write about what happened consistently.

In this memoir I share openly and vulnerably raw stories describing what has been like for me to live with trauma, bipolar and anxiety disorders. And how the love from my husband Brett, and his family, have been the most healing in addition to the love I learned to give myself.

This is my story of me returning back home to myself and wholeness.

I also share about the variety of healing modalities I tried both somatic and cognitive work. And what I’ve been doing to heal, repair and regulate my nervous system, and the impact it has had in my life including creating my own medicine to stop manic episodes before they escalate.

I wrote this book for anyone who is living with trauma, extreme mood shifts, bipolar, or anxiety and perhaps feeling alone, misunderstood or thinking there’s something wrong with you, and their loved ones. Also for those curious about what’s like to live with a mental illness from the inside and how that affects a person’s life.

This is also my way to acknowledge the people who made made a difference in my healing.

My book will be available for order in 2026.

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